What's goin on

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Maybe you heard, I'm pre-ga-nen-te!!! And this while working a real job for too long on top of raising seven and schooling five children leaves only a wink for anything extra.

I seriously miss writing. I miss telling you my funny stories and amazing epiphanies. I miss knowing that we are connected here. And that, my sweet friend, is what brings me back.

So this morning God answered my prayers definitively. I have been agonizing over my job since before the positive pregnancy test. My children, these blessed gifs of life, have needed me here at home with them. I struggled to let the extra income go but felt the end coming. After I announced the new baby coming, the hunt began for my replacement. I thought I would continue to work one day a week after she was hired, but I found out this morning that I will not have that option.

It's funny... I should be thankful, and I am. But I feel strangely about leaving. I want to be as productive at home as I have been at work.I want to work as hard at saving money as I worked to earn it.

Ultimately, I am anticipating a wave of relief in two weeks when I wake up early to serve here at home as Dale's wife and Kennedy's, Micah's, Jasmine's, Tre's, Leila's, Deisha's, and Scarlette's Mom.

And maybe I can spend a little time here with you too!!

Lvb


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