bsmiles and sunny days

Yesterday for several hours I felt the baby working its way down lower and lower. When I got home from coop Dale said my stomach had changed, obviously it had dropped.  At 7:00 I started timing contractions. Four hours I had them. I sat on the exercise ball for about half an hour a few times, which seemed to get things going once they slowed down, but at 1AM when there was no sign of baby I finally went to bed. It seems like such a mean trick to feel all these new things everyday and none of them put me into labor. Dale, in his sweet way, said before I went to bed, "I'm sorry you didn't have your baby yet." I didn't cry. Its not that desperate. Yet... I know it will happen when everything is right and rushing that is a mistake. God made my body perfectly. It's just my nature to help when circumstances are not the way I think they should be!! On a happy note, I am back under the 40 pound mark. I was very, very nervous 4 weeks ago when I gained 4 pounds between ...

I am still here and very pregnant. Its hard to believe that I am on the outside of week from my due date. My rationale is off kilter, clearly. I've been scouring the internet for safe home induction methods for nearly two weeks now! Sheesh! How do I get so wrapped up in this crazy cycle! I am still functioning like normal, but I am restless. Unfortunately for my house, my energy is spent scouring the internet instead of organizing and cleaning!! I am nesting, no doubt, but I am whittling away at silly projects instead of doing things that really need my attention. On a happy note, things are good on the home front. Dale and Kennedy took a sick day today and Jas had a second round of the stomach flu. I was thankful to have the stragglers take their turns now rather than later. I will bleach and disinfect everything in the morning in anticipation of the end of our flu run. We have a quiet week and busy weekend and start of next week. I wish it were the opposite. I need the busyness t...

I have a long list of things to do. We have company coming tonight and more company tomorrow. I should be doing laundry, cleaning under and behind furniture, organizating drawers, grocery shopping. Instead I am in my bed listening to my kids play outside. This year we decided to take every birthday off from school. Thank you Kennedy for yet another day to let things go!! My sweet Kennedy is 15 today. Shoot! I might cry. All of a sudden it seems like the end of her childhood is so much closer than the end! Of course it is, but it never seemed like it before now. I could gush over how amazing and helpful and delightful she is in so many ways, but instead I will just thank God for her life. She is a blessing in the most profound way. She exemplifies how God gives us abundantly more than we could ever ask or imagine. Lvb

Hi my sweet friends! Some of you this is our only communication most of the time. Others of you talk to me regularly and have to hear my post repeated multiple times. Either way, I thought an update would be appropriate. I will be 38 weeks tomorrow and have, as usual, been anticipating labor every minute of this last month. Strangely, the closer I get to my due date, the more nervous I get about labor. I just can't get past the dangerous possibilities of everything that could go wrong. Being 36 years old and after 8 pregnancies, I am at a high risk. I should be avoiding the internet altogether because most recently I've learned that after five deliveries your uterus can start to let you down, being unable to contract properly and what not. It's silly, I know, but it's in my head now. I am drinking red raspberry leaf tea 3-4 cups a day to prepare my overworked uterus and trusting the Lord that I am His handiwork and having babies is the good work that He prepared for me ...