Hanging On

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I am still here and very pregnant. Its hard to believe that I am on the outside of week from my due date. My rationale is off kilter, clearly. I've been scouring the internet for safe home induction methods for nearly two weeks now! Sheesh! How do I get so wrapped up in this crazy cycle!

I am still functioning like normal, but I am restless. Unfortunately for my house, my energy is spent scouring the internet instead of organizing and cleaning!! I am nesting, no doubt, but I am whittling away at silly projects instead of doing things that really need my attention.

On a happy note, things are good on the home front. Dale and Kennedy took a sick day today and Jas had a second round of the stomach flu. I was thankful to have the stragglers take their turns now rather than later. I will bleach and disinfect everything in the morning in anticipation of the end of our flu run.

We have a quiet week and busy weekend and start of next week. I wish it were the opposite. I need the busyness to keep me occupied and off the internet. Honestly, not an hour goes by that I don't feel like this baby could come at any second! It is messing with head. Pray for me, friends!

Lvb

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