bsmiles and sunny days

It's overwhelming, this road... I've been rolling along at break-neck speeds. House, school, kids, laundry, all good. Money, marriage, emotions, good. Started writing again, you guys- I'm so excited about this writing project, I can hardly contain myself. I want everyone to read the first few chapters I've already written!! It completely energizes me. Then this morning, a text, a comment, a message on FB, all is not well on the home front. My teenager is in the fringes. You know, like not on the straight and narrow. I thought we were good! I thought said teenager was rolling along, making it happen, getting it right, and then someone points and turns the lights on. It's not all sunny in sunny KC. Sent me reeling, for so many reasons. I'm accepting things like: Parents don't produce behavior, they cultivate an environment with boundaries and consequences for an expected behavior. There is a separation that has to happen between children and parent

It was a meltdown. I know you don't know what I was talking about in my last post... I've been crazy lately. Like psychotic. I told Dreamboat that I was acting like a psychopath, and I was. But guess what?? IT HELPED! It helped to get the advice that I would have given someone else! I felt better. Can I say something here? I did a "test run" on a keto diet. Like, full-on, the breath, the odor, less than 20 carbs a day, and I was golden. I did really well on it, it gave me this sense of control with food that I don't recall having ever before. I lost 10 pounds, my belly started shrinking, and I was on top of the world. NO ONE encouraged me to stay the course, because of course when you eat a weird diet people freak out. NO ONE was freaking out when I was eating bear claws two at a time. No one seemed to mind when they saw me make three trips to the buffet and then drink a caramel white mocha with whipped cream and caramel drizzle... seriously. I could k