something beautiful

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 I can remember being 5 years old when I had a dream that no one wanted me, so I walked around my neighborhood looking for a place to live. It wasn’t that I wasn’t wanted in my home; I was well-loved and cared for. It was something inside me, a darkness, that whispered the lies that held me hostage for decades. I wasn’t enough. I would never be enough. I could never do enough to make myself someone that mattered.

I didn’t realize that God had this incredible plan for me all those years ago. He was shaping me and guiding my steps and preparing me for all of this. And now here I am, living the dream He planted in my heart, not because I did something to make it happen, but because He loves so beautifully. Because His kindness is boundless. His goodness is endless. His love is so deep and so wide that words cannot begin to describe it. Because He is good, my life is full of meaning and purpose and beauty.

We used to sing this song in Sunday night church years ago that articulates my encounter with God perfectly.


Something beautiful, something good. 

All my confusion He understood

All I had to offer Him was 

brokenness and strife

And He made something beautiful of my life.


Mothers Day never fails to remind me that God took my darkness and brokenness and made something beautiful out of my life. I will never cease to express my gratitude to Him because He chose me for all of this.

“Now to Him who is able to do far more abundantly beyond all that we ask or think, according to the power that works within us, to Him be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus to all generations forever and ever. Amen.”‭‭Ephesians‬ ‭3:20-21‬ ‭NASB1995‬‬ https://www.bible.com/bible/100/eph.3.20-21.nasb1995

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  1. MaryMay 11, 2021 at 8:57 AM

    I love these pictures so much. He does take our emptiness as a time of preparation for what He knows He has in store for us.

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