Thankseating

 This afternoon I found myself with a bowl of Puppy Chow (muddy buddies) in my possession. People were taking handfuls from all sides when one of my girls backed away and said, “I don’t know how to stop eating this stuff.”

I joyously anticipate the holidays all year long, and every year I am plagued by the same demons. I go to bed feeling stuffed, sick, and miserable because I don’t know how to stop eating. I make promises to myself that I won’t make the same mistake again tomorrow only to repeat the same ridiculous gluttonies day after day. 

It’s not the food, it’s me. I don’t require any sort of restraint from myself. I don’t prepare myself for the onslaught of delicacies that will be within arms reach for days on end. I go in blind and hope for different results knowing all too well that without a plan I’m defenseless.

After reading a chapter in Proverbs last week, I shared the dangers of drinking too much alcohol with my kids. They seemed to understand and absorb the wisdom, and then one of them said, “It basically says the same thing about eating too much, doesn’t it?” And I began to understand and absorb the wisdom. It does say it. It says it in no uncertain terms. (“When you sit down to dine with a ruler, Consider carefully what is before you, And put a knife to your throat If you are a man of great appetite. Do not desire his delicacies, For it is deceptive food.”

‭‭Proverbs‬ ‭23:1-3‬ ‭NASB1995‬‬

https://bible.com/bible/100/pro.23.1-3.NASB1995 )

That’s why I feel like this. It’s not about just another sliver of pie or another little bit of broccoli salad. It’s about hitting the brakes and saying, “Enough.” 

I have been rolling these thoughts around all week only to bowl past them when the food hits the table. I’m praying that God will change this in me. I’ve tried for 35 years and I can’t seem to do it. 

“Teach me Your way, O Lord; I will walk in Your truth; Unite my heart to fear Your name.”

‭‭Psalms‬ ‭86:11‬ ‭NASB1995‬‬

https://bible.com/bible/100/psa.86.11.NASB1995